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My Rainbow


I can't believe I get to be her mommy.
It's been seven and a half months since I gave birth to this little miracle. I think back on the things I've been through to get to this place and there are moments I still can't believe it's real. God is so amazing and works things out in HIS time. I remember thinking about Sarah (Genesis 18) who had to wait until she was 91 years old to hold Issac in her arms (Genesis 21). I remember wondering if that would be me. I was glad I had Sarah to learn from. I would not fall into her desperations (Genesis 16). I would not lose faith or give up. I turned to scripture for reassurance. My favorite was Luke 1:45 which says "And blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what was spoken to her from the Lord." People thought we were weird buying items for a baby that was yet to be conceived, but we stepped out in faith and didn't doubt God for a second. I believed God's promise and I was going to wait on Him. 
It was hard though... it definitely was not easy. Every month that passed got harder and harder. But faith is made whole through trial. If we don't face trials, we can't grow and mature in God. James 1:2-4 says "Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." I have learned so much through this process and I am grateful for the trial. Why? Because I am maturing in my faith. Because I know that I'll be more prepared for the next trial. Because I know I'm stronger now than I was before. Because I know I will NEVER take a single moment for granted. I cherish my child more than I would have if she had come easily. Every smile, every laugh, every coo, every cry, every fit, every tantrum (yep- even those)... I take a deep breath and thank God for letting me be her mommy. I'm blessed that He is using me to teach her about Him. I get to help her grow up knowing there is more to life than simply living. I am finally fulfilling my calling. God is so good.

If you're going through a trial right now, draw inspiration from it! Dig deep and stand your ground in Christ. Just know that this will make you stronger!! You have to weather the storm to enjoy the rainbow that follows.

Meet my rainbow, Charlotte:


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